Wordless with words. And still without

Sometimes I don't have any words
But still want to write.
It's not writer's block
Instead it's a simple case of
Feeling that the words I would normally type
Cannot hold the depth of what I'm feeling.
Yet some part of me wants shout out
My feelings in no safe or productive way.
Today it's OK to have no words.
Tomorrow perhaps will be
Tears instead of speech
As i again grieve.
It's as simple as missing
And as complex as losing.
No words.
Some days are hard for me.
Mother's day is one of them.
Perhaps this is why
Friday was full of
Emotional distress
And weary anticipation of the weekend.